The Journey

So, in terms of knowing me I guess one of the biggest things you could say is that I have a massive journey ahead of me.

In all honesty, I am not a skinny healthy girl, but a massively overweight one. My mission is to reach my goal weight by my birthday the 27th of June. In terms of what this means number wise I have around 45kgs to lose in 15 weeks. That comes to roughly 3kgs a week. For me, being overweight or a heavier girl has pretty much been my life. I almost reached my goal weight 3yrs ago, and to see me now its almost inconceivable. How can one let themselves go so far? I despise that I have come to this point, and after 3 yrs of turmoil and spending every day trying to "diet" I have finally reached a point where I can no longer just try but must religiously act.

Body image has become my life, my obsession and the unhappiness of it all is eating away at me. I tend to lose control when i even think of how far away I am from my goal and in terms of an outlet, i seem to resort to food. So, I begin a new regime, a new attempt at regaining control of my body, my habits and ultimately my life and my fingers are crossed that I can stick to it.

I know people who read this, or don't as the case may be, are thinking it's her own fault.. Well that I know, and i don't want to hear from people who are set on bringing me down. But for those out there who are in similar situations as me, or who understand at all of what I am going through, I hope to hear from you.

Maybe we can travel on this journey together..
-Lost Girl