It's happening again.. I can feel it, I can see it. I can't stop it.
Betrayal. Betrayal by those considered my best friends, those people that I stood by and betrayal by my own kin. I trusted them to not do this to me, I thought that things had changed, but I guess I was naive to the facts... and now its as if my heart is being torn apart.. again....
This time will be different though, I will not stand by and be ok with this.
A question; Does being alive and experience life to the full, require you misplace your trust, and experience pain and heart ache in order for you to experience happiness?
-Lost Girl
Wow! You are going through a rough time right now. There's a fair amount of pain in your circumstance.
ReplyDeleteYou really need to talk to somebody. A friend, a counsellor... somebody! Your tertiary institution will have something available. Or someone you already know.
Talking really does help. It feels so much better to know that someone cares. Half the time you get the answer you need while still explaining the situation.
We all have pain.
We cannot go through life without experiencing pain.
We were created to live without it, but our world is fallen. There is pain all around us.
We are hurt by others. Also, we hurt others. Often unintentionally.
While there is no way to completely protect ourselves from ever being hurt, there is an answer to it. Healing can come.
As with any wound, you have to get the gunk out. Talk. If a wound closes over with dirt inside, it gets infected. A relatively small can become lethal. It has to get opened again and dealt with for healing to come.
Sometimes we heal on our own. Sometimes we need others to help. Serious wounds need serious help :)
Some wounds, only God can help.
God is so good. I turn to him for everything, big and small. Funnily enough, he often uses other people to bring the healing in.
My wife was sexually abused as a child. Sadly, this is not uncommon in our world. Was this necessary for her to experience happiness? No. Hurt does not help you feel happy. You don't even need hurt to appreciate happiness. Often the happiest people in our world are children who haven't been hurt. They don't need pain to make them happy. They will not be able to avoid pain in life as they get older, but as a parent, I need to help my children learn how to deal with pain.
My wife's whole life is a miracle.
Our nineteen years of marriage is a miracle.
Her healing is a miracle.
Life has pain, but it does not have to determine our course. Pain does not have to rule us.
We choose our response to pain.
God can take things that are bad, and make them good. He can make us stronger. He can help us build a better future. If there is a way to avoid a mistake or be protected, he can help us.
Warm regards,
Michael
PS When I first clicked to follow you, I came up as Michael Appleton, but your blog did not appear on my dashboard. When I added your blog to my follow list, it came up on your site as another follower, michael202. Sorry about that. It is the same person. I'll fix it if I can.
thankyou michael for your kind and considerate words,
ReplyDeleteit sounds like you have an incredible family, and even though life has given you lemons you seem to be able to make lemonade.
may god bless you in everything you do.
-Lost Girl