You would like that wouldn't you? You, I see you staring at me with glazed eyes. You pretend like you have no idea what is going on. You would have liked it if I had've stayed in the dark, because the longer I am in the dark, the better you feel about yourself because all that guilt is kept at bay.
But I am not in the dark any longer, I will not be naive to the situation. I am on to your game, and I am not pretending innocence in this.
I'm over it. The fake smiles, the its ok attitude. It's gone.
It was driven away when you decided you would rather be with her. It's creepy you know. It's creepy that you used me to get to her, its creepy that you ditched me to buddy up to her.. and it's creepy that you are now cosy with her.
I just, I can't live with it. I can't deal with it, I can't pretend that it doesn't creep me out. It does.
So next time you decide to talk to me, know this. You will forever be deemed as her friend. You will forever be held at arms lengths, and I will not lean on you no longer. I banish you from my presence just like I banish you from my thoughts. I will not think of you in the days, weeks or months to come, and when you are mentioned or seen from here on in, you will just be a person. A person I no longer associate with, a person I no longer care for.
In all this, I do not hate you, I just can't live like this. For to hate you, would give you the satisfaction of know that I still care in a way. You would like that, wouldn't you?
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